WORKS AS A COMISSIONED PERFORMER:

SONGCYCLE FOR A SAD CLOWN


2025




An eerie cabaret for clown, choir, clarinet, piano and percussion. An anthem for the ache.

55 minutes
Amsterdam Fringe Festival 

Composition, concept, lyrics, performance: Sabine Pendry 
Arrangement, co-composition: George Demetriou
Direction, dramaturgy: Ari Teperberg
Performance: Nadia Bakshii, Hildur Elísa Jonsdottír, Domen Cizej
Costume: Raphael René Jacobs, Hildur Elísa Jonsdottír
Photography: Roman Ermolaev








A strange creature invites you to make light of her troubles. She weeps in tune, craving your laughter, your applause, and most of all your pity. Her voice trembles as she navigates various moods — she is hungry to be understood, but thrives on her own alienation. Her off-kilter ensemble echoes her lament. 
As the music unravels, so does the logic of this world. What emerges is a sonic theatre-of-the-absurd. 
This work uses voice, sound, text and physicality to explore the performativity of sadness, catharsis, and alienation. With equal doses satire, whimsy and sincerity, the clown emerges as an extreme poetic response to the pain of living: a departure from the normal attitude to life. 









WORKS AS A COMISSIONED PERFORMER:

SEEKING SOLACE


2024





Operatic performance by  Hildur Elísa Jónsdóttir

Length and size variable
POST (NL)
Arti et Amicitiae (NL)
Photos by  Bas Overbeek

Performed in POST by Amanda Payne, Caz Egelie, Hildur Elísa Jónsdóttir, Nadia Baxşı and Sabine Pendry
Performed at ‘Boekie Woekie & Friends’ by Amanda Payne, Ari Teperberg, Hildur Elísa Jónsdóttir, Nadia Baxşı, and Sigrún Gyða Sveinsdóttir




Seeking Solace delves into the stark contrast between the outward face of professional life and the internal struggles modern individuals face. The lyrics are inspired by candid and confessional videos found on TikTok, highlighting the profound duality between the open expressions people share online and the guarded fronts they present in their everyday lives. The impostor syndrome in the lyrics becomes even more apparent by juxtaposing the unhinged confessions and the archaic folk songs. While the lyrics are intimate and unrelenting, the folk songs are reassuring and comforting - a paradox that many relate to from their own lives in regard to their inner dialogue as opposed to external circumstances.











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